Posted November 6, 2014 (Original post here)
Recently it’s become extremely difficult for me to stay focused and motivated in school because I already have an idea of what I want to do with my future. I have this image in my head of what I want to do with my life and where I want my life to be in 5 years, but in order to get there I need to start now. But I can’t.
This past summer a group of friends and I came together to create a website with the aim of providing information and advice for young girls. I run a beauty blog and one of them runs a fashion blog and the other runs a food/travel blog. We came together to create a website where we talk about trends and things going on in our respective fields and we each contribute to the advice section. Since I wasn’t employed during the summer I was able to focus majority of my time and effort to it and I was extremely happy doing what I was doing. I loved making my schedule every day because I had to decide what video to film or what product to review. It was fun and I enjoyed it. I spent my days testing/playing with makeup, editing videos, editing pictures, and coming up with content to write about.
By the time school started I had a part-time job and I had a full-time student schedule. In between that I spent my time driving or working on assignments/group projects. I hate coming to school because I know I’d rather spend my time doing what I was doing back in summer. I miss it. I hate coming to school knowing that I can’t do what I want to do and knowing that I’m working towards a career that I don’t really want.
I’m stuck in a frustrating position and now I have an idea of what I would like to do even if my website/makeup stuff doesn’t work out. I want to get into social media marketing, but because it’s such a new field, there isn’t really any type of position open/available.
At this point in time I’m just unhappy with where everything is going. It’s just so frustrating and I can’t do what I want and my classes aren’t what I hoped for. I need some advice on what to do. I’m extremely close to graduating, projected for Spring 2015, so leaving school is a big no and I need to keep my job to help my family financially. I just don’t want to become one of those people who get stuck in a job that they hate. I’m looking for any advice.