November 8, 2014 (Original post here)
As I write this I’m feeling so burnt out. I came home from work about 2 hours ago and I just submitted one of my assignments and luckily I don’t have to work on anything for my classes this weekend. I’m still feeling burnt out. I guess it’s because I’m stuck in a routine, well semi-routine since my work schedule always changes.
For the past couple of weeks, I’ve just been feeling so tired and like I have no time to do anything. I try to always have some type of balance with every aspect of my life and at this point of time, I feel like I’m not having enough time to do everything I want.
I’ve been pretty luckily during college that I didn’t have to work for a while because I had saved up enough money to hold me over and then I took out student loans. However, during 2013 Fall semester I tried to have a part-time job and it paid really well, but it was so emotionally exhausting and it was such a bore that the amount of money I was being paid was not enough to keep me at the job. I honestly had a difficult time managing everything and I spent so much gas going from my house to work to school and then back home.
Right now, I’m lucky enough to have another part-time job with amazing people and my classes haven’t been too hectic. It’s just been difficult to work on group projects without feeling like I’m slacking. In addition to working and going to school, I also bowl (sports club for my university), I try to spend as much time with my boyfriend as possible, I also try to spend time with my family. So in all honesty I’ve neglected hanging out with my friends. Even between all of that I get exhausted.
For those who have a full-time job and are full-time student, and capable of maintaining good relationships with everyone close to you, I give you so much props. I get tired of hearing professors and older generations say that my generation is so lazy and we don’t like to do anything. I don’t think they realize how hard some of us work to put ourselves through college and live the life that we want. When I hit a big milestone in my life, I love to treat myself. When I first started college I bought myself a MacBook Pro. When I first made $1,000 on my own through work, I bought myself an iPad (obviously I’m an Apple lover), but I think it’s important for people to treat themselves.
When I talk to other students about what they want to do, some of them don’t currently work. I know when some older generation folks hear that they think, “Oh, it’s because they’re lazy and don’t want to work.” However, if you ask some of them, they’re not currently working because they have some type of circumstance that prevents them from working or they’re busy trying to start up their own business or build their dream.
Part of the balancing act is figuring out what’s important to you. To me there are 4 things that are currently important: 1. my religion, 2. my family, 3. my boyfriend, and 4. my education. Unfortunately there isn’t enough room for other things, but I make sure to dedicate enough time to each of those things. Work, bowling, and blogging are extras that I try to fit into the mix. I use a planner to schedule everything and I try to dedicate as much time as I can and invest in my relationships.
Some of you may think that having my boyfriend up there shouldn’t be a priority. I understand where you’re coming from, but to me that relationship is important because he’s my closest best friend. I talk to him everyday, both in person and through text, and we both invest a lot of ourselves into our relationship. He’s very special and important to me, and I can’t imagine life without him. So he stays in my top list. If he came before family, then that would be an issue for me.
As much as I try to plan everything out and I try to balance everything, there are times when it feels like the world just crumbles either on me or below my feet. I don’t know how some people can continue to find the energy to keep going. If you have any advice, write it down below in the comments and then hopefully it can help others too!