This question has been going through my mind a lot lately. It’s difficult for me to put into words exactly what it is that I feel; the best way that I could phrase it is, I feel like I’m meant to do something impactful.
I thought that I would be fine working an 8-5 job in an office, but it’s not fitting me just right. Like most commitments in life, I feel like things should fit me-like clothes. I used to watch this show on TLC called, What Not To Wear, and the best advice that I ever got from the show is: “If it doesn’t fit you, it’s not your fault, it’s the piece of clothing.” From there, I applied that saying to a lot of things in life.
When I was picking my college, I looked at a couple of campuses and took 2 tours. I only had two colleges that I really wanted to go to, so I made the effort to visit both campuses. Though both of them felt right, I was told to leave my comfort zone-which for me was home. So, I thought of it like this: I’m looking for a new suite/business attire. I’m used to wearing slacks and neutral colors, but I want something a little different, but still in my comfort zone. So I look at dress pants that are a skinny fit and cropped at the ankles. Then I look for a brighter colored top something like a red or emerald, and get a tweed blazer that cut at the waist with a 3/4 sleeve. It’s still in my comfort zone but it’s a little different. The college back home was similar to the first suite I was talking about; it was my comfort zone and it was what I was familiar with. When I moved to the mainland and attended college here, it was different, but there were still elements of home which made it easier.
At my current job, I do enjoy the people that I work with and the work can be really interesting and exciting, but I feel like I’m in an oversized shirt that I’m trying to make work. Though I like it and I can fit in it, it just doesn’t quite feel like me. It’s comfortable and it’s something that a lot of people could do, but though it looks amazing on some people, it just doesn’t look the same on me. What I’m trying to say is – I don’t hate the job and I don’t hate the people I work with or the company I work with. It may take time to feel like it’s me.
I really want to be able to feel some type of fulfillment at the end of the day. I want to feel that my actions and what I did has affected someone’s life. Deep down I think I have a servants heart; I feel the most fulfilled when I’m helping someone else or affecting someone’s life in a certain way. Maybe that’s why I didn’t mind working at GAP so much. Though the job wasn’t the most fabulous, I found some enjoyment in it through the interaction I had with my customers and my co-workers. I enjoyed talking to them, and sometimes I do miss their not so brilliant questions.
Now I’m asking myself the same question again. At this moment, I have everything I could ever want. Now I’m just trying to figure out how I can give back to the world. Though I do want to take on big projects, I don’t think I’ll have the resources or creativity to do so. I want to start small and work my way up.
I really want to experiment with Etsy and play around with the idea of selling some stuff on there and donating some of the proceeds to a local charity-and then expand into some other charities that do things around the globe. I have honestly been blessed with so many opportunities, and I think it’s only right that I find a way to give back and to put some good/hope back into this world.
So, what am I going to do with my life? Hopefully I’m going to be able to impact others’ lives for the better and bring them the hope/faith that happiness and prosperity is out there for them. I want to be a life changer. I want to influence people to become a better version of themselves.
If I go on this journey, will you guys be there with me?