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Wow, I really can’t believe that 2017 is over – 2017 was the first year where I felt like the whole year flew by! I wanted to take a moment and just review the year, but this won’t get too deep. I enjoy doing this because it allows me to look back on the year, almost like a vlog, but not really.
I was hoping to be able to really stick to my What’s In Janellie’s Belly, but to be honest, my diet had started to go down hill and I just was becoming discouraged when I would talk about what I was eating. Not to mention I had stopped working out. It was just tough for me to keep up that lifestyle especially because I was just so tired every day. Though posting and talking about my food really helped keep me accountable, it was embarrassing to know that I wasn’t eating the best.
I also had a rough patch this year – I had started experiencing anxiety attacks and they were occurring almost every other day. It had gotten so bad I had to call in sick. They have tamed down a lot, but I still get them every once in a while. I can’t remember how open I have been regarding my attacks, but it’s something that I’m not quite ready to talk about because to me, it’s a weakness and I don’t like really exposing my weaknesses unless I have figured out how to handle them.
It’s tough for me to remember what I talk about on this blog and what I don’t. With that being said, I have picked up bowling again and I have also picked up card making. Bowling has been a love of mine for a while, but I had stopped for a little bit because it was just too heart-breaking for me to continue with it. I had dreamed of becoming a professional bowler or at least bowling a professional tournament, but it was just too tough financially. I also had a tough time finding time to hit the gym and practice. I just had to let the dream die completely because it was just too tough to try and keep it up.
Card making is a weird one, I know, and it came out of left field, but here’s the thing. I realized that I was using YouTube and this blog as a creative outlet, and though I’m in a marketing position, I don’t always have the chance to be creative. It’s almost like having someone ask you to create a new TV cartoon, but all you have are 4 Copic markers and one piece of paper. It’s almost impossible! So I decided to try lettering, but eventually that led to card making. I enjoy being able to really think outside of the box and actually create things. To me, it has rounded out my hobbies and it’s brought a type of release that I’ve been searching for.
As much as I would love to work on my blog and YouTube channel 24/7, I have too many bills to pay to do so. I am trying to figure out what my next step is. I love the people I work with, but it’s not something that I can do for the next 3 years. I will continue to search for something that gives me a sense of purpose In the mean time, I will continue to work on this blog and continue to purses the thing that I love.
I had been lacking on the reviews. It was just tough to keep it up because I don’t have the same disposable income that I had when I was living with my parents. There are a few things that I save up for here and there, but I just can’t buy the makeup like I used to. As I pick up things here and there I will do reviews, but I won’t be able to purchase every new thing that comes out on the market.
2017 was a year that brought so many opportunities to learn about myself and just grow as a person. I have been hoping to have some type of “breakthrough” like this and 2017 was the year that it happened, now 2018 is the year to put these plans into actions and obtain my goals. Thank you for joining me on this ride and for coming to my blog! I love you and am so thankful for your time.