It’s Been A Year

Hi folks! This is going to be a creative writing piece that I did in tribute to my uncle who passed away last year. I must include this quick trigger warning: suicide.

My uncle decided to take his own life last year and ever since then, my family and I have never been the same. I can admit that we still struggle and I can admit that we still hurt, but I hope that this may shine a different light on the subject. I hope that this might be able to open the eyes of someone who is contemplating it and they realize that there’s a ripple effect. Suicide is something to not joke about and it’s something that millions of people are struggling with; keyword being struggling and I am one of them. I fight everyday to stay here. I fight everyday to keep going, to survive another day. I fight, but I know that other people fight as well, but sometimes they just can’t win the battle.

Hi Uncle,

It’s been a year.

It’s been a year since you decided that enough was enough.

It’s been a year since you decided that the pain was too much.

It’s been a year since you decided that the loneliness was all-consuming.

It’s been a year and we still don’t have any answers.

It’s been a year and we still mourn.

It’s been a year and  we still hurt.

It’s been a year of silently crying in the shower and wondering if there was more we could’ve done.

It’s been a year and there hasn’t been a day that has gone by without you crossing my mind.

It’s been a year and the guilt still lingers.

It’s been a year with every milestone tainted with a somber moment of wishing you were here.

It’s been a year and the pain is still all to real.

It’s been a year of replaying that Sunday in my mind, wishing I could go back in time.

It’s been a year of wishing I had just taken the chance to reach out to you.

It’s been a year of just trying to make it to the next day.

It’s been a year and the thought that you’re no longer here is still all too surreal.

It’s been a year.

We still miss you.

We still mourn you.

We still think of you.

It’s been a year.

 

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